growing.

I am growing up. It's a reality I face every day. I think we all grow in different ways each and every day. Sometimes we regress, and I truly feel one needs to do that in order to grow. I am trying to find my next stepping stone in life and it's making me feel complicated. But I am okay with that.

ummmm

why do people ask for my HONEST opinion and then when I give it...bitch at me. good friends are honest. i, therefore, am a good friend. if you don't want my honest opinion,don't ask me for it.

why?

why do women in the gym find it necessary to walk around the locker room completely ala birthday suit....for about 10 minutes...having random convo's, checking their butts in the mirror, standing on the scale, sitting on the benches...etc....WHY? AND WHYYYYYYYY did one of these such culprits decide to graze her naked butt along my gym bag this morning. i seriously got the disinfectant spray from my non-English speaking nysc worker and doused my bag. said bag will now be sold on Craig's list. that's my little gym story for today.

back to the swing of things!

well, it has been forever since i have blogged! I really need to get back on it! I am making lots of moves and changes in my life right now....all for a positive change and something I want. It has been difficult to grow and understand what it is I really want in life, yet I have never been so sure of where my life is going, as I am right now :)

I have also begun to compile past letters / notes/ thoughts...in hopes of beginning my memoir! that is really exciting for me!

i will be writing more :)

new year!

new year . new beginnings. my goals for this year.

*go away. far away. get my passport stamped. see a new exciting place.

*travel lots within the US. take last minute trips - although most of our getaways are last minute. but i want to really see so many more places.

*continue to let new people in my life, but nurture the strong friendships i currently have.

*let go of heartache.

*forgive

*love those around me even more and show them that I do.

*not feel bad so much....because I really always think about others so much and maybe a little too much sometimes. think about myself.

*get healthier, in mind body and spirit.

*LET GO!

that's all for now. wishing all a happy 2009, a year filled lots of love and lots of laughs ! xxoo

Holiday lurve

let's discuss how excited I am for the Holidays this year!!!! I am generallt excited every year, but last year I was under some stress and although I didnt enjoy time with famiyl; and friends, there were soem clouds overhead......this year I feel free from it...and although there are days where I am upset and stressed I realize how lucky I am to have so much goodness in my life, in all forms. the love that surrounds me is bountiful and when times get tough I sit back and breathe it in. Ok enough mush and gush......let's discuss the Holidays thus far!!!!

Best story so far..... My Mom is on one of her many Holiday calls to a cousin-type relative who informs her on the passing of another relative...my Mom calls me up right away to tell me not to mail out this relatives Christmas card (obviously) ....instead she sends a sympathy card and Mass card to his daughter.....WELLLLLLLL my Mom gets a call from his daughter who informs that he is, in fact, very alive! When my Mom told me this I cracked up....she felt terrible of course.....but a misunderstanding in that people in this family all have the same friggin names makes things get a little confusing!!! Well I thought this was just hilarious. Merry Christmas! Congrats you're not dead after all!! Well it was nice news to hear.

My big change for the start of 2009 has been my hair. back to my roots . literally. well actually darker and me likey.

I am excited to go to Rockefeller Center tonight . I love going every year. It just makes Christmas...well Christmas. :)

Awkward?

So last night at the first Holiday dinner of the year I once again was reaffirmed in believing that waiters reading specials at Italian restaurants is such an awkward moment.....Am I wrong?